I had a loss today for the 5th week in a row! Woot woot! I honestly cannot remember when the last time was that I actually lost weight 5 weeks in a row. It's probably been like...6 or 7 years??? Geez...is that right? Umm...probably...especially when you look at my starting weight!
Anyway, I lost 1 lb this week and was super happy to see the loss. Here's hoping for a 6th successful week! :)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Weight update
I had a great weigh-in this week! I lost 4 lbs!!! I was so happy to see the 200's on the scale, it's not even funny! I've been hovering just over the 300 mark for the last year and I'm very happy to leave it behind. I still remember the first time I saw the scale say 300. I was shocked. It's amazing how easy it is to become complacent at a certain weight. One, two, three pounds up at a time don't seem like too much of a problem, but then you settle at that new weight, become complacent again, and the scale keeps moving up. That's how it felt for me anyway.
The problem is that in the past years, I've begun to feel like it's impossible to lose weight. I know this way of thinking is illogical in theory - that there's a whole science behind losing weight, but that's how I felt. The last few weeks I've been giving weight loss and health choices a concerted effort. I had a slow start, but have been getting momentum and I'm making very different decisions about what I'm eating. Things are clicking, but I'm cautious about being optimistic because I've fallen hard in the past. The good news is that I've had 4 weeks in a row that resulted in weight loss. This is the most consistency I've had in a while, and I've definitely worked for it. There have been moments of frustration, anger, self-pity, and tears. Actually, I've cried more in the last week about my situation than I have in a long while. I think I've been suppressing emotions that are related to my weight and poor health. I remember being very emotionally reactive about my weight gain several years ago, but somewhere along the way I'd found a way to shut it down. To put on an act that I'm okay with this weight - even to myself. Unfortunately, I don't think that helped my cause much. Being honest with myself about how I feel about this extra weight, and being able to make myself vulnerable enough to admit that there is something I need to change about myself, has helped me get into a better mindset. A mindset that makes it easier to make healthy choices. I didn't necessarily set out trying to uncover "hidden" emotions, but found that they started bubbling to the surface more and more, perhaps because I wasn't numbing them with food anymore!
I wonder what this week will bring!
The problem is that in the past years, I've begun to feel like it's impossible to lose weight. I know this way of thinking is illogical in theory - that there's a whole science behind losing weight, but that's how I felt. The last few weeks I've been giving weight loss and health choices a concerted effort. I had a slow start, but have been getting momentum and I'm making very different decisions about what I'm eating. Things are clicking, but I'm cautious about being optimistic because I've fallen hard in the past. The good news is that I've had 4 weeks in a row that resulted in weight loss. This is the most consistency I've had in a while, and I've definitely worked for it. There have been moments of frustration, anger, self-pity, and tears. Actually, I've cried more in the last week about my situation than I have in a long while. I think I've been suppressing emotions that are related to my weight and poor health. I remember being very emotionally reactive about my weight gain several years ago, but somewhere along the way I'd found a way to shut it down. To put on an act that I'm okay with this weight - even to myself. Unfortunately, I don't think that helped my cause much. Being honest with myself about how I feel about this extra weight, and being able to make myself vulnerable enough to admit that there is something I need to change about myself, has helped me get into a better mindset. A mindset that makes it easier to make healthy choices. I didn't necessarily set out trying to uncover "hidden" emotions, but found that they started bubbling to the surface more and more, perhaps because I wasn't numbing them with food anymore!
I wonder what this week will bring!
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